Take the world...but give me Jesus. How often do you hear people say that? How often do we really mean it?
An aching to know my Savior in a new & deeper way has begun to be released inside my heart and mind..and I know that part of knowing Him in a greater, more intimate way, means giving up the things of the world. Of letting go.
Letting go. That's a hard one. It's hard to let go of the things i want and desire. It's hard at times, to let go of the ideas I have about God and how He works. And it's hard to let go and "let God" with the people and relationships around me.
Sometimes I think I can save people...sometimes I think its me that is great. But that's SO NOT TRUE!
Recently the Lord has really exposed my own heart to me. I'm selfish. I'm judgmental. I think i'm better than others. I care about what concerns me and not what is the best for everyone else around me.
I don't like this part of my heart. In fact I hate it. I hate that, at times, my flesh wins. I hate that with everything exposed, sometimes I don't know what to do about it. The only thing I know to do is, ask God to change my heart, because He's the only one that can change me.
I don't like this part of my heart. In fact I hate it. I hate that, at times, my flesh wins. I hate that with everything exposed, sometimes I don't know what to do about it. The only thing I know to do is, ask God to change my heart, because He's the only one that can change me.
The other night I watch Thor. I really liked it, but at first I did not like thor at all, because he was this super cocky, prideful baboon. but after his dad banished him to earth he was put through several situations where he was humbled and he realized his depravity. Long story-short, at the end of the movie he had a complete heart-change. He saw how his father had a purpose for banishing him to the earth..that is wasn't in vain. It was a trial. A testing of character. As I'm watching this God reminded me that He does change hearts! Sometimes it seems impossible for heart's to be changed, but with God, He can do it in an instance if He desires! It gives me hope-knowing God is God. That God is ever-so-faithful.
I'm thankful God has given me a heart of flesh & not a heart of stone. In a way I'm thankful He's asked me to live a life of vulnerability. Even though it's hard at times and I don't want to let people in... I heard someone once say that living a vulnerable life is living transparent and it's only when we are transparent that true beauty can shine through....and I like that. I want to be beautiful to people. More-so I just want to be real. No fascade.
Just a broken and bleeding heart that is desiring to know her Savior more each day and not waste it away.
