A healing..

It's almost been a full week being here at ywam denver. Things have been good, yet its going to take some time to get used to living in community. You realize how selfish you can be. That's something I am trying to die to daily. Die to my selfishness and my wants, and in place be a servant to the needs of others around me.
My prayer for this season is to be refined in the fire of the Lord. Everything in my heart that is not of Him, I want removed. And as of yesterday I am seeing that happen. At first I wasn't sure what was going on, but after talking to some friends the Lord used them to show me He is answering my prayer. He's refining me. He's getting rid of all the crap in my heart, the hurt I've been through, and still hold onto, unknowingly. I'm in a way, joyful about it, because I see what He is doing and I can feel the process of the refining. I see the answer to the prayers I'm praying.

Yesterday we were given an overview of what this school will look like with projects, ministries, and book reports. I'm really excited about it all! Some of it terrifies me...lol, but I don't find that a surprise. What I do find a slight surprise is how willing and how much I'm looking forward to the outreaches...we as a school will be leading. I've always been afraid of things like that. The responsibility of it all. It goes to show how good God's timing is. If I would have done this school 2 years ago, I would not have been ready. Ha...i would have dreaded it. But, a lot has happened in my heart and mind since my dts ended. In a way, I'm a completely different person. I thank God that He has brought me here at this time. I've made some good friends and hopefully they will be life-long ones at that.
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