A Heart's Desire.

mmmmm..I love me some high pulp orange juice on a snowy morning in Utah, on the 24th of May. I'm so ready for summer. So. Ready.

Last night my church had a night of prayer. It went alright. It was really hard to engage. I was distracted and tired and the atmosphere was different than it had been the last time we had a night of prayer. But the worship. Man, the last half of the worship time was so full. I wanted to just lay out on the floor.

During the second service Sunday morning, dad was talking about the prayer service that night and I felt like I needed to come up to the church early and pray and sing for that night.
So, I did. And it was so good. I've become better at playing and singing, which is awesome! Thank you Jesus. :) But I've also become better at singing and playing in the Spirit.
That is what I've wanted for a long time. Ever since I did my internship at the House of Prayer in -Kansas City. I know that it is the Lord who is releasing these things in me. Because I've haven't done anything to be better. The longing in my spirit yesterday was satisfied through playing and singing my heart out to Jesus. I find those times so sweet. It's just me and Jesus loving music together.

I'm about to embark on a new journey with music and I'm so excited! This summer I'm going back to ywam denver and I'm doing a School of Worship.
In a way, It doesn't seem like a reality. Being a part of music in a worship setting or being a song writer has always been a dream and desire of mine, but it hasn't ever really happened until lately. I'm a little scared because I'm afraid that I won't be able to do what I want with music, that I'll forget everything, or something ridiculous like that. I know it's not true. And I am just trusting Jesus. Trusting Him in His faithfulness. God has made a way where there is no way, for me to do this school and I'm blown away. He really does know my hearts desires. He does know how long I've waited for this time, never thinking it would be now. He KNOWS.
Wow. A God that knows. Out of all of the people in the world, God knows my heart. I want to know His as well. I want to know His heart as if it were my own.

Wouldn't that be something.